So, I just graduated from college this past May, and although I feel as though I have done so much growing these past four years, I’m still so lost when it comes to trying to figure out my career path. Since moving back home, my least favorite question from family and family friends has been, “so what’s your plan, kid?” and my answer remains the same: I have no freaking clue. It’s funny because as I look back at who I was coming out of high school, remembering that I was scared and unsure but figured that after getting a college degree, I would know for sure what path I’d be taking career-wise. Yet, here I sit four years later, feeling more lost than I was four years ago and no matter how many “adults” I hear life advice from (and yes, I put that in quotations because what does it really mean to be an adult, anyway?), I’m still unsure of what to do next.
However, there is one conclusion I have been able to draw. Simply put, no one truly knows what the f*#& they’re doing at the end of the day. I think it’s so easy to get caught up in this idea that “getting our shit together” means getting a steady paying job; finding someone to spend our time with; and eventually creating our own family outside of the one we were given. But, maybe that’s not the path for everyone. It’s hard to separate myself from that ideal because I think for so long, I truly believed that was the norm and that it was what was meant for me.
In truth, that’s why I went to college in the first place. I didn’t truly know if college was for me and a big motivating factor for going was because I truly believed I would not be successful had I not gone. But I realize more and more that there is no one true path. It looks different for everyone and the less time I spend comparing and conforming, the more time I have for trying and experiencing.
It’s true that I still have no clue what I am doing or what I want to do; but that’s okay. I think what’s more important than finding something to do is find something worth doing—something that maybe you’re not even that great at—but it’s worth it because it’s something you care about.
When I picture the idea of success, I picture doing something that’s meaningful to me—something that makes me excited to get up in the morning. Something that makes a difference in my life and ultimately the lives around me.
I hope I find that someday.